That is the opinion of my sinuses, nose and throat right now as I choke down Zyrt@c and Sud@fed while shoving Vicks up my nose so I can breathe and try not to drown in my own gunk, i.e. my body fighting the coming of Spring. And we had snow flurries yesterday morning. Nice.
The kids are with their dad for an extended weekend, and thank goodness for that as I've accomplished no more than plow my way through 4000 kleenex, drink enough hot tea and coffee to sink an aircraft carrier and pee 50 gazillion times...and sleep. I've slept more in the last three days than I have in a month. This getting older and sick crap is for the birds!
Things are going well with my Knight in Shining Armor (I keep thinking I need to give him an abbreviation or acronym, but he deserves the whole title...suck it, haters) and I despise feeling like garbage with allergies and sinus crap when I'm honestly on Cloud9 most of the time. Feeling sick makes me grouchy...if you couldn't tell by the above! Once in a while a gust of wind from the court dealing with bankruptcy or dissolution will knock me in the gut, but I think that is more of a whole life outlook kick in the gut. I mean, who plans on those things as your 'goal' in life?? Things were so NOT planned that way, and I hate it. It makes me sick. On the other hand, I know those things brought me to where I am now- getting stronger, losing lots of emotional baggage, and enjoying a wonderful life with my soul mate and my kiddos.
I haven't blogged much as of late because I've been super freaking busy with school work, visiting out of town, beating my head against the wall with Monster Man and his lessons, taking the kids back and forth to their dad's and getting things pared down around here, staying up way too late, wasting wayyy too much time on FB and being overwhelmed buy this house - I have too much STUFF. Stuff I've kept around me for years as love and memories of friends and family. I have started spending more time with the friends and family, as I have always enjoyed doing, (with help of being loved by my Sir Knight) and weeding through to CHUCK the STUFF.
BTW- this summer is sure to be exciting!! I promise to update here more often, even if I have to do it with short posts via my phone! Stay tuned!!
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Showing posts with label my Knight in Shining Armor. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my Knight in Shining Armor. Show all posts
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Blog...I have a blog??
Oh yeah, whoops...I guess I do! A seriously neglected one. Knock! Knock! Is this thing on?? Does it still work??
Been an extremely busy few months, some highlights:
The pile of dissolution paperwork to end my former marriage is done and been filed...waiting...waiting.
Been trying to sort through and de-clutter this house. I SOOO need to jump back on the FlyLady wagon. This house definitely shows my last several years of being 'lost.'
The kids have been spending the weekends with their dad/Mr. F, having a blast in the snow (more than here) but I think they are getting tired of the packing and the trips. We'll see how long that lasts.
Surprisingly I've been keeping up with my workouts either on the elliptical, tap, walking the dogs or exhuasting myself with Just Dance2 on the Wii. The kids love it, but WHEW- what a work out! I do feel better... now if I could lose more than 5 pounds in 3 months, I'd be ecstatic!!
Monster Man's front teeth he lost before Halloween are FINALLY coming in. Yes, we're a slow bunch.
Two snowstorms in one week- over a foot of snow- need I say more?? Blech.
The critters are all still kicking- Momma Rabbit included. Puppy is 110 pounds; she towers over Lucy...and the kids. Big dopey puppy, we just love her!
B's progressing toward teen years not only with her recent 12th birthday but also accompanying little random tiffs of attitude. Yay. Joy.
Dance is going well- everyone excited working on really fun recital routines, me included. This year is going to rock!!
Monster Man continues to try my patience. He's become extremely negative lately. The words lame, dumb, stupid and hate are furthermore BANNED! Also constantly asking for things, wanting to go buy things/a toy every time we go out...which he does NOT get and never has so WHY now?? Is this an almost 8-yr-old phase thing?? A boy thing? A this kid needs all possessions taken away to live a 'boring life' for a while thing?? I'm about to wits' end.
School- well, I believe I've slacked enough to barely get Pathetic Parent of the Year award for this year, but we're getting it done nonetheless. Ugh. Trying to step it up a couple notches to finish the year out with a BANG!
My Knight in Shining Armor has been exactly that- all-around amazing, wonderful with the kids, talks to me and WITH me (let me stress how AWESOME that is!!!), makes my heart do flip flops and is completely spoiling me with attention. If I'm dreaming, don't wake me!! I am definitely NOT use to anyone fussing over me, but I'm liking it!! Wow. Just wow. The clam-up, shut-down, can't get my thoughts/feelings/opinions out problem I've had for the past two decades apparently doesn't exist in this relationship. Perhaps being with the right person does the trick! I'm comfortable enough to let about anything in my head fly whether I think he'll agree or not...I'm pretty sure he's trying to figure out a way to get me to shut up! ;-) I've known him nearly as long as I've known the soon-to-be ex, but there's always been the whole other level of connection and understanding, even years ago working together....and it never CLICKED in my head why or that it meant anything. To me an amazing friend, a big brother I never had- I chalked the connection & understanding up to that. I never thought he'd even THINK of the possibility of 'us' and he'd never mentioned it out of respect for the relationship I was in. If he even hinted I was totally blind/naive to catch it. And heck no, I'd never mentioned he was the absolute perfect guy, an awesome catch for some girl who really deserved him - why? because he might think I was crazy for thinking of him that way!! So keeping in touch as friends over the years was the best I could do, and that's what we'd done. Now 16, 17 or so years later, all those little things from the past start to click into place and make sense...whoa, seriously?! We are just deliriously happy!! Even if it did take years to get together, everything happens for a reason so I don't see those years as time wasted at all- I have to believe that God wanted us to live through other situations first, see if we still had that connection, maybe to be sure?? who knows?? I wouldn't have my B and Monster Man; he wouldn't have done the traveling he wanted to. That time certainly not 'lost' by any means, just time to get to where we are now. Have I mentioned the man has patience beyond Job?? Without a doubt! He's more than earned his halo. I know he has a guardian angel up there- I sure hope she's pleased with all this. I'm definitely very thankful for him! I'm just hoping he doesn't come to his senses and start running for the hills!! ;-)
--yes, the Knight in Shining Armor gets a humongous paragraph- he's certainly worth it!
That catches you up for the most part! Back to craziness!!
Been an extremely busy few months, some highlights:
The pile of dissolution paperwork to end my former marriage is done and been filed...waiting...waiting.
Been trying to sort through and de-clutter this house. I SOOO need to jump back on the FlyLady wagon. This house definitely shows my last several years of being 'lost.'
The kids have been spending the weekends with their dad/Mr. F, having a blast in the snow (more than here) but I think they are getting tired of the packing and the trips. We'll see how long that lasts.
Surprisingly I've been keeping up with my workouts either on the elliptical, tap, walking the dogs or exhuasting myself with Just Dance2 on the Wii. The kids love it, but WHEW- what a work out! I do feel better... now if I could lose more than 5 pounds in 3 months, I'd be ecstatic!!
Monster Man's front teeth he lost before Halloween are FINALLY coming in. Yes, we're a slow bunch.
Two snowstorms in one week- over a foot of snow- need I say more?? Blech.
The critters are all still kicking- Momma Rabbit included. Puppy is 110 pounds; she towers over Lucy...and the kids. Big dopey puppy, we just love her!
B's progressing toward teen years not only with her recent 12th birthday but also accompanying little random tiffs of attitude. Yay. Joy.
Dance is going well- everyone excited working on really fun recital routines, me included. This year is going to rock!!
Monster Man continues to try my patience. He's become extremely negative lately. The words lame, dumb, stupid and hate are furthermore BANNED! Also constantly asking for things, wanting to go buy things/a toy every time we go out...which he does NOT get and never has so WHY now?? Is this an almost 8-yr-old phase thing?? A boy thing? A this kid needs all possessions taken away to live a 'boring life' for a while thing?? I'm about to wits' end.
School- well, I believe I've slacked enough to barely get Pathetic Parent of the Year award for this year, but we're getting it done nonetheless. Ugh. Trying to step it up a couple notches to finish the year out with a BANG!
My Knight in Shining Armor has been exactly that- all-around amazing, wonderful with the kids, talks to me and WITH me (let me stress how AWESOME that is!!!), makes my heart do flip flops and is completely spoiling me with attention. If I'm dreaming, don't wake me!! I am definitely NOT use to anyone fussing over me, but I'm liking it!! Wow. Just wow. The clam-up, shut-down, can't get my thoughts/feelings/opinions out problem I've had for the past two decades apparently doesn't exist in this relationship. Perhaps being with the right person does the trick! I'm comfortable enough to let about anything in my head fly whether I think he'll agree or not...I'm pretty sure he's trying to figure out a way to get me to shut up! ;-) I've known him nearly as long as I've known the soon-to-be ex, but there's always been the whole other level of connection and understanding, even years ago working together....and it never CLICKED in my head why or that it meant anything. To me an amazing friend, a big brother I never had- I chalked the connection & understanding up to that. I never thought he'd even THINK of the possibility of 'us' and he'd never mentioned it out of respect for the relationship I was in. If he even hinted I was totally blind/naive to catch it. And heck no, I'd never mentioned he was the absolute perfect guy, an awesome catch for some girl who really deserved him - why? because he might think I was crazy for thinking of him that way!! So keeping in touch as friends over the years was the best I could do, and that's what we'd done. Now 16, 17 or so years later, all those little things from the past start to click into place and make sense...whoa, seriously?! We are just deliriously happy!! Even if it did take years to get together, everything happens for a reason so I don't see those years as time wasted at all- I have to believe that God wanted us to live through other situations first, see if we still had that connection, maybe to be sure?? who knows?? I wouldn't have my B and Monster Man; he wouldn't have done the traveling he wanted to. That time certainly not 'lost' by any means, just time to get to where we are now. Have I mentioned the man has patience beyond Job?? Without a doubt! He's more than earned his halo. I know he has a guardian angel up there- I sure hope she's pleased with all this. I'm definitely very thankful for him! I'm just hoping he doesn't come to his senses and start running for the hills!! ;-)
--yes, the Knight in Shining Armor gets a humongous paragraph- he's certainly worth it!
That catches you up for the most part! Back to craziness!!
Monday, January 10, 2011
New Year, New Life!
So much has happened in the past month that I don't think I can get it all down!! I have attempted to post but wasn't sure how/what to write. One thing is certain, I DO need to get my previous post off the top of the list. THAT chapter is over and done with- my life is on the mend and emotions have done a total 180!! The kids can tell, my friends can tell...my mom has even noticed and said, 'It's about time!!'
Come to find out, even when you think life is just going to have to suck and you know you need to start over, the fairy tale does exist. Apparently I had a Knight in Shining Armor waiting to rescue me- I knew he was there. I knew he would always be there- I just didn't realize that's what he was! Funny part- after finding out about my wonderful Knight, my mother said again, 'It's ABOUT TIME he jumped in here!!' Huh?? What?? Ok, my mom knew this, and I've been clueless?? Hmmmm...ok!! I'm still kind of in shock, on both counts, but I'm liking this feeling I've never experienced before. Unreal- that high school, giggly kind of over-the-moon stuff...wow, just WOW! Occasionally we hear people talk about soul mates- the one person who is out there for YOU, just you- and often think there's no way- those people are crazy! Spending near two decades with the same person- even if you love them- you convince yourself that time will help work towards that deeper status/connection, but if it's not there...you can't make a soul mate no matter how hard you try. I near lost myself trying.
But now?? Well, I must be one of those crazy fools because I know now my Knight is and always has been my soul mate...I just never realized it. I never had any idea he was the Knight for me...or was always there waiting. I had no doubt he'd rescue someone, he's that kind of person...but me?? Never thought I was even on the same map :-D Maybe the crazy part is I hadn't realized it sooner!!
So 2011 has started off on a very bright note for me!! It's only going to get better- I know it!! I hope the same happiness for you!!
-I'm sure after reading about my gripes and frustrations as of late, y'all are relieved to see something positive for a change!! Thanks for hanging in there with me.
Love you guys!!
Come to find out, even when you think life is just going to have to suck and you know you need to start over, the fairy tale does exist. Apparently I had a Knight in Shining Armor waiting to rescue me- I knew he was there. I knew he would always be there- I just didn't realize that's what he was! Funny part- after finding out about my wonderful Knight, my mother said again, 'It's ABOUT TIME he jumped in here!!' Huh?? What?? Ok, my mom knew this, and I've been clueless?? Hmmmm...ok!! I'm still kind of in shock, on both counts, but I'm liking this feeling I've never experienced before. Unreal- that high school, giggly kind of over-the-moon stuff...wow, just WOW! Occasionally we hear people talk about soul mates- the one person who is out there for YOU, just you- and often think there's no way- those people are crazy! Spending near two decades with the same person- even if you love them- you convince yourself that time will help work towards that deeper status/connection, but if it's not there...you can't make a soul mate no matter how hard you try. I near lost myself trying.
But now?? Well, I must be one of those crazy fools because I know now my Knight is and always has been my soul mate...I just never realized it. I never had any idea he was the Knight for me...or was always there waiting. I had no doubt he'd rescue someone, he's that kind of person...but me?? Never thought I was even on the same map :-D Maybe the crazy part is I hadn't realized it sooner!!
So 2011 has started off on a very bright note for me!! It's only going to get better- I know it!! I hope the same happiness for you!!
-I'm sure after reading about my gripes and frustrations as of late, y'all are relieved to see something positive for a change!! Thanks for hanging in there with me.
Love you guys!!
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